God is disappointed with me: Is that true?

Author Wm. Paul Young writes:

Every child yearns to hear “I am proud of you,” not for performance but simply for being. Yet, most of us know what it’s like to feel the devouring abyss of disappointment, especially in the face and voice of others.

My father was disappointed in me—all the time. At least that is what I felt as a child and therefore what I believed. Whether or not he was, I don’t really know. We have not had that conversation yet.

There are many ways to shame a child, and sadly, many of us know this from experience. Cruel words and harsh declarations of judgment unhinge little souls from their moorings:

You are disgusting.
You’re just a slut.
You will never amount to anything.
You’re an idiot.
After all we have done for you . . .
I was happy until you came along.
I wanted a boy.
I wish you had never been born.

But there is another devastating way to shame a child, and that is through silence.The turned-away face and the little shake of the head before the door closes leave a child absolutely and utterly alone—crushed under the voiceless glance of disappointment.

For many, life itself is a series of disappointments.

Things don’t turn out the way we had wished. Circumstances seem to work against us or something comes out of nowhere and knocks down what we had worked hard to build. The unexpected washes it away as quickly as a hurricane, a flood, or a political, business, or moral decision. Continue reading “God is disappointed with me: Is that true?”

This week’s Essential Question readings: The Church is Persecuted (Acts Chapters 5, 6 and 7)

If you are joining us in studying the Bible book of Acts, you have two weeks this time to cover the five readings!

  • 11 Lying to God, Acts 5:1–16, page 34.
  • 12 We’re in the Jailhouse Now, Acts 5:17–42, page 35.
  • 13 Trouble in River City, Acts 6, page 36.
  • 14 Good News for a Hostile World, Acts 7:1–19, page 38.
  • 15 Courageous Evangelism, Acts 7:20 – 8:1a, page 39.

If you are interested in the information Colin gave about the Persecuted Church, they came from the excellent UK Open Doors website, opendoorsuk.org.

Stuart and Emma Townend: I am here for you

Just the audio of this song I’m afraid.  Stuart Townend‘s new hymn I am here for you, sung by Emma Townend.

The words are:

When the load is hard to bear,
And the fog of fear envelops you,
Let me be the friend to share
In the pain that you are walking through.
When you stumble on this narrow road
And it feels like you’re forsaken,
There is one thing that is sure to hold –
I am here for you. Continue reading “Stuart and Emma Townend: I am here for you”

Lauren Daigle: Trust in You

When You don’t move the mountains
I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You

Trust in You, Lauren Daigle

1 Peter 2 v. 9: God’s chosen treasure

But you are God’s chosen treasure—priests who are kings, a spiritual ‘nation’ set apart as God’s devoted ones. He called you out of darkness to experience his marvellous light, and now he claims you as his very own. He did this so that you would broadcast his glorious wonders throughout the world.

1 Peter 2:9, The Passion Translation


Isaiah 66: I’ll pour robust well-being

“I’ll pour robust well-being into her like a river,
    the glory of nations like a river in flood.
You’ll nurse at her breasts,
    nestle in her bosom,
    and be bounced on her knees.
As a mother comforts her child,
    so I’ll comfort you.
    You will be comforted in Jerusalem.”

Isaiah 66:12-13, The Message

Image from Don Moen.

Explore tomorrow

Last Sunday we started a new series The Essential Question, which guides us through the Bible book of Acts. Each week we get five readings to study, with a helpful accompanying reflection of each.

Tomorrow Gill continues the series, with five more readings: The Church Begins to Grow (Acts Chapters 3 and 4).  It’s going to sound a bit different, Gill’s Mum Gwen is going to lead two of the hymns on the organ!  Ottery St Mary Parish Church, 11.15am

The five readings for the coming week are:

  • 6. ‘Just Do It’ Faith, Acts 3:1–10, page 26
  • 7. The Hard Sayings of Peter, Acts 3:11–26, page 27
  • 8. The Offence of Christianity, Acts 4:1–22, page 28
  • 9. Fearless Prayer, Acts 4:23–31, page 29
  • 10. The Perfect Church, Acts 4:32–37, page 30